Mr. Late

I was signed up for English (online), Healthful Living (online), Adobe Photoshop and Drawing.

It was the night before my first drawing class and I felt sick to my stomach. I had spent the passed two days completely depressed and unable to sleep. A million things ran in my mind. This was a harder for me to swallow because I knew I couldn't just get up and leave if I got anxious.
Earlier I'd had my doctors write a letter in regards to special accommodations involving my CF and anxiety. Still I felt like I'd be trapped. Mum and dad were so supportive too about it all. I had a heart to heart with them and decided that I'd try to get through the first day at least so I wouldn't regret running again. I agreed. Who would I be if I quit without even trying the first day. So I got up early, tried to eat and got in the car.

My mind wasn't blank this time, it was full of thoughts. When I parked I sat for a few moments trying to relax. I felt the sweat forming on my neck. I didn't know if it was nerves or the 110° temperature. Either way it was 4 minutes till and I was going to get out of the damn car.

I felt my hand shaking as I opened the classroom door completely blind to what I was going to see. Only 5 students were seated so I got a chair in the back corner. "Just breathe" I thought. I saw the teacher and decided to just watch and see how I felt. The class filled up and she started her lesson about the syllabus. About 10 minutes into her lecture the door opens and in walks Mr. Late. I could already tell by his laid back attitude and style that he was probably a character. He came and sat next to me, I was about to say hi but the teacher was still lecturing. 

I noticed 4 girls sneezing and coughing and felt my body tense up. I was afraid this would happen. It was the first day and already germs flying around the room. I was incredibly grateful who I was sitting next to and that it wasn't one of them. How was I going to deal with the sick thing? 

After about 1 1/2 hours of the lecture we all went up and grabbed paper and two crayons since we didn't have our supplies yet. Shown below was the project we all had to do. You basically take two crayons and make some loop-d-loops on the paper and then fill them in with patterns. I really liked this project, it didn't count towards anything but it was fun. I could feel poor Mr. Late struggling a little for ideas. This was probably not his forte but he really seamed to be trying.

After the class I went home and was proud I stuck it out through the whole thing. Now I just had to figure out if I was going to keep it or drop it. My biggest worry was the sneezing. If people were sick in the summer it would only get worse towards winter. I wish I had some amazing power that could keep me from catching a cold forever. I'd feel so much freedom!!!
Well either way I was going to have another chat with mum and dad...

My Pattern Piece