4 out of 5, ✓

I was pretty afraid of this science test because science is so hard for me to comprehend. It seemed like the tests got harder after each one I took which would explain my anxiety increasing every time I went back. I was hoping the questions would click more than they did in my practice test but I was heavily doubting myself. There was a lot of kids this time again I guess I just got lucky the first time when all but 5 cancelled. I kept calm though and actually felt pretty good about the test. I got the score back when I got home and was shocked. They were better than history and even reading!!! Then it dawned on me that I had completed 4/5 now that I never had to look back on. I felt GREAT. It was still hard to really relax until that fifth one was done though. The big one, my biggest struggle out of all of them, math. I hadn't even studied for math because I was studying for the tests before it. This meant that I had 2 days to cram anything I could into my head. It didn't seem possible. I started looking at some practice tests and my old books. It was ugly, I had forgotten so much! I didn't leave the book until I recognized some of it or until things started clicking again. It's amazing how some problems can click and how others you just don't have a clue. I started to panic the second night when I realized how unprepared I felt. I just felt like there was so much riding on this test because it was the last and only one left keeping me from graduating. I've always been hard on myself to do well even as a kid. Not even my parents understood why. They were never the ones to put that kind of pressure on me. I think I just wanted that feeling of being the best so bad that anything lower made me feel like a failure. It's completely ridiculous. So here I was completely stressed out about tomorrow and still coughing from my cold. I couldn't even think about the CF right now I had too much on my mind. I took another practice test in the morning and then just as before we were on our way. When I sat down at the desk,  I suddenly got that reality shock, the one where your stomach sinks into your butt and you can't even focus. It never hit me before on the previous tests so why now!? I needed someone to slap me out of my daze. I stared up at the loud clock just WAITING for it to start. "tick....tick...tick...ti" "COME ON!"