All A's

Now its time to talk about how school has been for the passed months. As I've already mentioned in previous posts I started out with a pretty rough start mentally. It was a shock and took probably about 3 weeks until I could get used to it. I had no idea what that kind of structure was like and having such harsh deadlines. It was scary and I just had to take it day by day. I was more stressed about school than what even happened with my health. I noticed something though. I got better. I got help and little by little I was handling more on my own. I had one other break down which is normal but I felt myself becoming tougher mentally. I pushed myself because there was no option. I hated it but I did it. When I ended early on the 13th it had to of been one of the greatest days of my life. Seems silly but other than my GED I couldn't remember the last time I completed and stuck to something difficult without running. I felt amazing and honestly proud of myself for proving something. I cried, I panicked, I stressed and I kept going. It made me realize that part of why I kept up my exercising was because of school. Well, that and my health of course. I felt motivated and like I was doing something with my life. I felt normal. My christmas break was fantastic. I realized for the first time ever I truly knew what the feeling of a "break" felt like. I woke up one day thinking I had something due and didn't. I was so happy I had a month. It has gone by so fast and I start again tomorrow. I can't say I'm excited, in fact I got nauseas just thinking about it. But anyways, I got all A's and am going to try and not stress about it. I'm taking english 102, human development, merchandising, and marketing. We'll see how it goes. Each semester with be different. I feel positive as of now and the other day dad came in and said something that caught my attention. He mentioned that since I've been sticking to things I've seemed different. Happier and had more energy. He was right I just didn't realize it was showing. So thats the update on that so far and I already have my next post in mind. It's more on the funny side. Until then...au revoir!